Ina - Tanging Yama

Ina - Tanging Yaman

Cecille L. Apsay

Sa mundong ito kami’y may nakilala,

Isang Ginang, tinatawag naming ina.

Hirap at pagod di niya alintana,

walang iba kundi si “MAGDALENA”

May Twenty-five nang siya ay ikinasal,

Sa ama naming lubos na minamahal,

Bob Apsay, bansag sa ama naming mahal,

Hindi maituturing na isang hangal.

Hindi lumaon sila’y biniyayaan,

Dalawang supling na galing MAYKAPAL,

CECILLE at CROMWELL ang kanilang pangalan,

Na ay kanilang lubusang minamahal.

Itong ina, na sa amin ay kasama,

Sa lahat ng mga ina siya lang talaga,

Hindi maikukumpara sa iba,

Siya ay bukod tangi at kakaiba.

Siya’y handang magbuwis ng buhay niya,

Di alintana ang hirap at pagdurusa,

Maitaguyod lang ang pamilya,

Siya ay handang maghirap at magdusa.

O ina naming mahal, salamat sayo,

Malaking utang ang buhay naming ito,

Ngayo’y handang magsikap para lang sa’yo,

Buhay reyna ang handog namin sayo.

Mahal na mahal ka ng buong puso,

Tanggapin mo itong munting alay sayo,

Galing sa ikaibuturan ng puso,

Ngayo’y bumabati mula saming puso,:

“Happy Mother’s Day”

malarong mahika ==> Playful Magic

Malarong Mahika

(Playful Magic)

CECILLE APSAY

Minsa’y nangako sa sarili ko,

Magmamahal na ng buong puso,

Ngunit sadyang kay hirap mabago,

Pagiging malaro’ ‘di mahinto.

‘Koy lumayo sa lupang sinilangan,

Nang kalalakihay maiwasan,

Ngunit ‘di malaman ang dahilan,

Ikaw at ako’y nagkagustuhan.

Minamahal kita o sinta ko,

Minamahal ka ng buong puso,

Agwat natin ‘di alintana ko,

Ilalaban ka ng buong puso.

Nang una’y ako’y naguguluhan,

Hindo malaman tunay na dahilan,

Nitong pusong dati’y nasugatan.

Ngayo’y nangangamba ng lubusan.

Nung una’y animo’y naglalaro,

Nang lumao’y nahuhulog sa’yo.

Ngayo’y takot’ bakat’ iwanan mo,

At ibasura pagmamahal ko.

Sa paglisan sa kinalakhan mo,

Dala ko puso’t pagmamahal mo.

Baon-baon saan man magtungo,

‘Di pagpapalit kahit kanino.

Sa pagbabalik sa sariling mundo,

Iniwan puso’tpagmamahal ko,

Munting pabao’t ala-ala ko,

Sana’y ingatan ng buong puso.

Ako’y hindi na mangangako pa,

Nang ‘di magmukhang naglalaro pa,

Sa halip pangangatawanan na,

Sana rin ay totohanin mo na.

Magic of Identity

Magic of Identity

Cecille L. Apsay

As I travel the journey of my life

People of many faces I see,

Some may hurt me,

And some may not.

When I decided to set free,

And leave someone in my place,

A piece of me I can’t see.

That gives me tears for many nights.

In the foreign land I stay,

Hang with aunt on a bar,

There I met so many friends,

That is now a part of me.

Here comes a young man of simple look,

And was not even attracted of his voice.

And was in planned to be on my list,

And so he does of me.

We both used to play in games.

Game masters that’s what are we.

Have our own battle field to play,

But still cross the field for a play.

Ha falls for me like a wink of an eye,

Like a snap of his fingers.

Like a magic trick he does,

But had never touches me.

I remained as hard as a stone,

And asked the freedom I want,

Because of his love, he sets me free.

Now again, I’m free in the land of emptiness.

As days goes by like a wind in the sky,

I seemed to be blind.

I knew he was there not far from me,

But never gave him a smile in back.

I know I hurt him much,

And may be he was right,

I was just too afraid,

To show what I really feel.

Time run so fast just like blood in our veins,

Not even diplomat can stop its flow,

Now I had gathered enough strength to fight,

I want him back and here’s what he got.

“ As time goes by;

My heart started to beat for you,

And decided to change the old me.

Before I’m on a land of emptiness,

‘til the day I met you,

A small hole of light I started to see.

As the days are running, and you’re still with me.

The hole grew bigger and bigger,

As I was able to clearly see.

Ya, please stay with me,

Coz now I can proudly say,

I love you and that is true.

Thank you for waiting me long,

I was indeed overwhelmed,

Thank you and I love you.”

paglalaro - pagbabago

Paglalaro – pagbabago

Ni Cecille Apsay

Buhay ko’y sadyang kakaiba,

Utak koy magulo nung una pa,

Sadyang bulalas kung tumira,

Di batid ang wika ng iba,

Sunod sa layaw kung umasta.

Nang dumating ang tulad mo sa buhay ko,

Mundo ko’y nagbago ng dahil sa’yo.

Ako’y tumino at nahulog sa’yo,

Pagiging malaro’y biglang nahinto,

Ngayo’y nagmamahal ng buong puso.

Kung ikaw’y mamasdan animo’y loko,

Pero puso mo’y tila ginto.

Sa buti ng loob at kabaitan mo,

Puso ko’y natutunaw ng dahil sa’yo.

Ngayo’y handing magbago alang sa’yo.

Pangako Yot ko, ako’y titino,

Sa iyo buong puso ko,

Sana lang ito’y pahalagahan mo,

Nang di maagaw mula sa’yo,

Alay ko sa iyo pagmamahal ko.

paglalaro- pagbabago

Paglalaro – pagbabago

Ni Cecille Apsay

Buhay ko’y sadyang kakaiba,

Utak koy magulo nung una pa,

Sadyang bulalas kung tumira,

Di batid ang wika ng iba,

Sunod sa layaw kung umasta.

Nang dumating ang tulad mo sa buhay ko,

Mundo ko’y nagbago ng dahil sa’yo.

Ako’y tumino at nahulog sa’yo,

Pagiging malaro’y biglang nahinto,

Ngayo’y nagmamahal ng buong puso.

Kung ikaw’y mamasdan animo’y loko,

Pero puso mo’y tila ginto.

Sa buti ng loob at kabaitan mo,

Puso ko’y natutunaw ng dahil sa’yo.

Ngayo’y handing magbago alang sa’yo.

Pangako Yot ko, ako’y titino,

Sa iyo buong puso ko,

Sana lang ito’y pahalagahan mo,

Nang di maagaw mula sa’yo,

Alay ko sa iyo pagmamahal ko.

LEARNING IS COOL

What I hear, I forget
What I see, I remembered
What I do, I understand

When I’m on the mood, I learned more.
When I’m so sad, I don’t remember anything
If I’m disturbed, I learned no more
emotions of mine is in need in learning

Learning is an active process
You and I interact
You and I learn with the moods
Is now holding till we reach the top

What I hear, I forget
What I see, I remembered
What I do, I understand

lyrics by: cecille apsay
music by: alfred mark denopol
performed by: aldous ric pebojot and company!

A Smile of True Reflection

A Smile of True Reflection

The last time I played and I lost

Now I’m in a place of emptiness

I could remember while the battle is on,

There’s a man who puts a strike on me.

He seems to be stranger,

Two years younger than me,

But from the day I saw him,

And gave me the sweetest smile he has,

I can’t help myself but to give a smile in back.

The game I had the last time I played was over,

And I miss the young man I met on a gig.

I hope and wish that I’ll meet him soon,

To be with his arms and stay with him forever.

God hear what I wanted,

And met him on another gig.

But this time he was drunk and caught him staring at me.

I don’t know why but I also finds myself staring at him.

When the gig was over and time to go home,

We sneak Sir’s eyes and together we stay until dawn.

In a place where the four of us finds comfortable,

To chat and enjoy each others side,

Until one day we found ourselves falling for each other.

The courtship happened in a short period of time,

Yet no single regrets reign in my heart.

Being his girl seems hard at first.

We had to hide the relationship we had,

From Sir and his friends in dancing.

Take no fear, we should be,

All we know we enjoy each other’s side,

And as days are running so fast,

I got used and understand everything.

On his part I should understand,

He broke his promise to his friends,

Broke-up with his girl from the outside,

And even broke bottles of liquors and be against with Sir,

Just for him to protect and be with me forever.

He may be as young as seventeen,

But he acts like a man of every girls’ dream.

Now my doubts are all gone

And I’m pretty sure for the love he offers me.

On the side of mine,

I’ll take this for sure,

I choose you my dear,

To love you truly and not to be my toy.

All my heart I offer you,

Please take a lot of care and keep it safe,

And promise me you’ll have it forever.

I’ll keep your heart in my heart,

Make you like treasures and cherish you forever,

Coz I love you and that would be forever.

GaMe MaSteR

GAME MASTER

cEciLLe aPsaY

“Love is like a game,

You are the player

And I am the game master”

And that’s what I am

Way back year 2007,

I was hurt and was broken down into pieces.

As I picked every piece of me,

Slowly I have decided to change.

Gm that’s what they call me

Game master???!!! Sounds interesting

That resembled my new identity

Playing with others,

Makes me feel so great!

That I can’t stop myself,

But to play it over and over again!

When the game is on,

A new contender came,

And entered in my battle field.

As i look at him keenly,

I knew he would be interesting.

While playing with him,

I found out that he’s also a gm!

Making me felt uneasy.

Playing the role of a gm in my own game,

I knew would be difficult

But to continue the game

There’s something that needs to be change.

My contender falls in love with me,

And decided to quit as game master

He became serious and determined,

That convinced me to stop the game.

Being with another gm seems so hard

But I’m willing to adjust because of him

The game I used to know which is “love”,

Has come in real.

Taking with the risk with him,

Feels so frightening,

Where would I’ll be if he would leave me,

But I guess its time for me to change.

“Love is not blind… it sees more not less,

But because it sees more it’s willing to see less”

A quote that i learned from Jordan,

And now that’s what I lived”

I love you but Goodbye

I Love You but Goodbye

It started with a text where we became good friends,

A couple of months, our communication were cut.

I have said something that hurt your ego,

But your compassionate heart forgives me and tied us as one.

We became lovers and it started like a seed,

Days, weeks, months, and a year passes by,

You and I fought for what we believe.

Trials and problems came that set us apart,

Until the day came, that the knot that bind us as one was broken.

A month after our break-up passed by, hatred reigns in our hearts

A couple of months and we became "friends".

Until the day came, that I have realized everything

I left a promise in myself;

"I’ll let you feel how stupid you are for hurting and leaving me behind."

The fact that I let you feel my pure love and care,

I loved you more than my life, gave everything and put my pride down.

But looked what you had done?

You stroked a deep scar in the center of my heart where it beats for you.

Every time I saw you and talked with you,

I have a difficulty stopping myself, saying that I still love you.

Because I know in my heart you’ll just laugh at it and hurt me more than before.

I longed to touch, hug the body and to kiss the lips that was mine before,

But whenever I got tempted

I can’t stop my heart to beat again for you.

Leaving you gives me pain, but I have to do so

When I’m about to close my eyes to end my day

My tears fall down and wish you could be mine again.

A part of me convinces myself, the promise that won’t come true

The promise of "Till death do us part"

I wish that I’m away from you,

And leave the love and hate I feel for you,

For me to free myself from the imprisonment which I called "My Love for you"

Now it’s clear for me that all I need is to have time and space.

My beloved one, you thought me so many things,

That changes my whole identity.

Now it’s time for me to take my revenge!

I’ll let you feel a million times the pain that you have given me!

To the person who causes me much pain,

I just want to let you know that I still love you

And is still waits for your return.

But now is tired and hopeless for our love.

By this time, I’m sorry but I have to do these things,

I’ll let you feel the rudeness treatment you deserve.

Now my plans are in the process,

I don’t know what it would bring me.

Thank you for the love and care,

My love that hurt me so much,

You taught me many things,

That changes my entire life.

I love you but good bye.

Cecille L. Apsay

November 23, 2007

Gaining back a lost friend

Gaining back a Lost Friend

In

Saint Paul

class I met a friend like you,

In the first quarter we became more than a seatmate.

There we have good times,

And are their in times of needs.

You thought me and I thought you.

Treated you as a male best friend

Every time when I am sad and started crying,

I can’t find myself but to call your name.

No one can stop me from crying but except you.

I don’t know what is with you,

That makes my heart stay calm when I am with you,

Remember the sticker you picked in the floor?

It’s Hamtaru and Beiju and you stacked it on my armchair.

It touches my heart when you say it’s you and me,

Because I know their friendships are great.

When the time came when we found our lovers,

You and I are in love with other person

Though we got busy but because of our similarity,

We still finds time to talk and shares what we feel.

Remember the retreat days?

Where we talked so deep at night in the nipa cottage

That makes me feel so comfortable revealing my true self to you.

As we got in college and rarely be with each other,

I always keep you in my heart

B’cause you’re important and I know you know that.

With a confession about myself to you,

There was a sudden gap between you and me,

That makes me cry and breaks my heart.

You know that I love you,

But I’m confused what kind of love is that,

A half of me get hurt when I see someone with you,

And the other half gets happy when I see you happy.

Now our friendship was back to the usual way it was

I wish it won’t be broken nor destroy again

And wish no one can stop our friendship,

Not even our special someone,

If that will happen again I don’t know if I can still cope with.

Now is my chance to ask you back

Can I have back the old Loisan who I was to call my best friend?

Though I already accepted the new Loisan,

But still there are times when I longed for the old you.